:: Tired ::

have been very tired lately due to work..
work have not been smooth.. its stressful n hectic n i'm doing everything myself..
its not the stress n the job that haven't been smooth *i love my job* but the ppl i work with..
i jus don understand y these ppl can jus sit there for the whole 8hrs acting bz n not feel awkward???!!!!
i don wanna elaborate further.. jus pissed with such shameless ppl!!!!

Thurs - dear was caught up with work so i took the chance to date jeanie n doris out for a ladies session.. had dinner with jeanie b4 meeting up with doris at mezzabar @ Mandarin Hotel *jus renovated.. very nice*
Was pouring out all my woes to the 2 ladies n did quite a bit of catch up too.. been a while since we last met up.. must thanx them for lending me their ears *hugs*

Fri - Yipee!!! finally went to look at my new flat!!! i can start to visualise how my hse will look *happy*
today got news that we will be moving office AGAIN!!! so troublesome *urgh!!*
there was a lot of miscommunication between my manager n the management *heck!!!!*
so much so much trouble but luckily my manager is very supportive n encouraging.. so been bz whole day with this moving office thing n a lot of other work piling up while that 2 B*****S jus sit there n act bz!!! F*** man!! my boss was damm rite!!
my ex boss basically employ them becos that b**** looks like his "chicken" back in Jkt!!
meet deardear to go shopping.. got my shoes for new year finally *happy*

Sat - today went back to work.. yes i don get paid but i have to go back cos my manager needs me to do something.. went back ard 1 but left only ard 5.. deardear was a bit upset cos i have to go back to work n yet i don get paid *upset*

"i'm sorry dear.. i know u feel that its unfair for me.. but i don have a choice.. jus hope u understand my situation.. sorry.. pls don get upset.."

after work when to compass pt to shop.. manage to get a nice skirt b4 heading to yi yi's hse..
da jie finally got her photos out.. it was so nice!! she's burning into a cd for me so will upload once i get it *wink*
Also have got my "schedule" for CNY out *man its gonna be a bz CNY*

- CNY Eve go pray mum then head to da jie's place for reunion lunch..
- dear gotta go pray his dad n granny too
- Day 1 - go yi yi's hse
- Day 2 - er gu's hse
- Day 3 - da gu's hse
- then following sat is "ren ri", will go xiao gu's place for lo hei
- then sunday go da jie's hse..

OMG!!! so packed!!

but b4 i start to worry abt that.. guess i have to get prepared for work next wk.. my MD is coming in from Germany on Tues.. so tml is another hectic day for me..
Counting down to CNY... 5 days...

Marriage

was browsing thru the internet n blog hopping n i can across a blog of an aquaintance n i really don understand how he could live his life that way..
His a man married with a son n both him n his wife enjoys the night life.. they take turns to stay at hm to look after their son while the other party goes clubbing.. i mean there is nothing wrong with this arrangement but if both party doesn't really cares abt wat each party does when they go clubbing then its not healthy..
i mean this guy is writing in his blog abt this girl he knew thru clubbing *i suppose*
he's upset becos the girl is avoiding her.. he drowns himself to forget.. he write his feelings for her.. but this "her" is not his wife.. i wonder if his wife actually knows or if she actually cares wat he does outside.. it seems that they know of each others life but jus leave it as that..
i mean is that wat marriage is all abt?
i don understand why ppl can be like that.. moreover they have a son..
i mean both of them r quite young.. ard 30? i know its a bit of a tie down but if u r not prepared for that kinda life why commit in the first place?
He loves his son alot but i dunno abt the wife.. apparently his son is also very attached to him which keeps me wondering if he got married so that he have a son n did the wife married him so that she have someone to support her.. i dunno.. i really dunno *confused*
yst was chatting with my colleague who is getting married this May.. while chatting this attachment in my co. joined in n ask how long i have been with my bf n my colleague reply straight VERY long..
but how long is long?
how short is short?
how long to date before marriage?
how to know if the person is sincere..
i mean i have seen ppl dating for less then a yr n yes.. they live happily ever after.. but how do u know he or she is the ONE?? but then again dating for 5yrs doesn't mean that u shd get married either..
in this case then why do ppl date?
for sex?
for $$?
for fun??
for company??
or jus becos other ppl gpt bf/gf so u have to have one?
don ppl date with the idea of getting married with the person n live happily everafter?
maybe i'm more "lao tu"..
maybe i'm more independent..
maybe i'm a "da nu ren"..
thats why i cherish every r/s n looks n commits like it will end with marriage..
thats why i always save for rainy days...
thats why i never need to be dependent on a man for $$ *but i don stop them on spending on me*
thats why i don like MCPs..
thats why i don like to be dictate by man..
i really dunno..
i'm confused..
i'm in a dilemma..
i'm speechless..
wat is the meaning of a marriage?
wat is the meaning of a r/s?
*deep thoughts*

:: ConTenMent ::

Yst went to Da jie's new hse for steamboat.. Met my cousin @ Sengkang n took the LRT.. Deardear gotta work cos there was some rugby thingy going on *poor thing*
Reached ard 6.30pm.. had a nice chat with my sisters n cousin.. its been a while since we last chatted like that.. Deardear came later ard 8.00pm looking like a lobster *OMG*
he was so badly burnt *7am-7pm*.. he was so red that his face look like he was a burnt victim!!!
Stupid rugby thingy again!!! My poor deardear was screaming in pain cos the heat was simply unbearable @#$%^&*@#$%&
Nonetheless, we had a great dinner n jie fu's frens also the brothers of his joined later for mahjong while we ladies played a little bit of "dai di"..
This morning woke up early n went back hm to pack some of my stuff n also to dismantle my bed frame cos that sis of mine keep bugging me *urgh!!*
many thanks to weiliang for helping me out move + dismantle + sent to deardear's place eventhough his Dad need the truck *thanks weiliang.. own u a treat*
I have also told my dad abt our coming ROM.. Luckily his reaction wasn't very big.. anyway not that he cares..
back at dear's place.. he fixed the bed frame then help me pack the room for my stuff then clear the wardrobe.. basically clear space for my stuff *thanks dear*
Today really spent the whole day at home doing spring cleaning.. packing all the stuff.. change bedsheets.. mop floor.. clean shelfs.. sweep floor *whoa!!*
So satisfied with the results.. nice spick n span room *claps*
Deardear has dozed off cos think he too tired liao.. while i take a couple of mins writing this entry..
CNY is round the corner n we went to Chinatown last Friday to get some new year clothes.. Me n deardear decided to go oriental this year *ke ke*
we got those traditional china looking tops in RED *ha ha ha.. walking ang bao*
This weekend have been great!!!
Can't help but feel so happy n contented.. Looking at my sister get married to a gd man.. forming her own family.. my other sisters having bfs that dotes on them *despite their terrible temper.. opps!*
n of cos myself with my deardear.. feels so glad that everyone in the family.. my dad, sisters, ah yis, gu gus, cousins n even gonggong likes him..
my communication with my sisters have also improve alot n not to mention my r/s with my external family too..
maybe as the chinese have this saying.. being together is easier then living together..
maybe its becos of the recent events or maybe its becos of age..
i dunno.. but i jus feel a sudden sense of contention with my present life..
a stable job + a loving bf + caring family
wat else can i ask for in life to have ppl like this in my life.. love them all!!
May god bless my loved ones with all the best in life *pray*
may everyone enjoy good health n good wealth too..

= Another step nearer =

Took leave on Monday.. Cos appointment to go HDB to collect my hse keys..
Finally able to collect my keys *glad*
took a day there n god it was raining like no bother business!!
But since it was the one n only day i could take leave cos too bz.. n my boss also needs me ard so *haiz*
Anyway after HDB.. went to book the venue for our ROM.. was hoping to do something like a poolside thingy.. so praying that day don rain then i can have a open air solemisation.. garden.. water.. sunlight n clouds *praying*
Now gotta start planning further.. our hse decor/ reno.. then reno loan.. then ROM details etc...
Lots to plan n so looking forward to our future together..
4 yrs 3 mths n counting to infinity *pray*
May our love grow stronger with each day..
Love you lots dear *muacks!*

:: Surprised ::

Got a big surprise from my deardear.. I was supposed to rush out to meet my sis the eve of her wedding to get our nails done..
So after getting myself ready.. I call for deardear to wait for me at the door.. But he called for me to go into the room n...
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i saw this beautiful ring n my deardear down on one knee *speechless*
I had choosen the ring but it wasn't due for collection for resizing..
I was really caught by surprise!!!
Although there was no flowers no romantic set up like i hope.. but it was all sweet n lovely..
Love u dear.. Hugs n Kisses..

~ JoyFul WeeKend ~

Its been a wonderful weekend!
After so much talking n preparing.. Finally its my da jie's wedding.. too bad it rain the whole day..
But its ok.. the rain didn't dampen our moods..
The eve of the wedding or i shd say the early morning ard 1230am.. my da gu came over to help da jie "shu tou".. took some pictures waiting to load when i'm free..
Then after that everyone managed to catch some rest ard 2am before the make up artist came ard 5am to do the make-up.. then followed the photographer which means i need to wake up.. god dammit its such a nice weather to snuggle in bed n sleep but no choice only 1 da jie.. so woke up to get ready n change before my sis friend drop in to get ready to tekan the groom..
Ard 8am the groom n his entourage arrive n the fun begins.. ha ha ha..




After that pics at the Singapore Changi Airport *only place to take pic cos heavy rain*
Took quite a bit of pics *the photographer also buay tahan* ha ha ha!!!



Left ard 10am cos gotta get to my bro-in-laws hse by 1030am.. Reach there after the tea ceremory then back to my place ard 2pm *yawn* so tired..
Tea ceremony ended at my hse ard 3pm then gotta rushed back hm n get ready to reached hotel by 5pm..
It was a big rush then before we know it.. All has ended..
Wats left is the beautiful pictures of everyone..



my Da jie is so pretty.. no wonder ppl say woman is the prettiest when she is the bride..



My sisters were jus as pretty n goregous n needless to say our partners are all looking smart n handsome *all in suits*
Have loaded some in my multiply but keep having prob.. anyway there r more in my sis camera.. will update again *wink*

>> http://jengcc.multiply.com/photos/albums/14

stress...

this new yr started with lots of happiness in life and also lots of stress at work.. yup!!
stress stress stress.. i know its only been a wk? i mean less then a wk into the new yr and i'm stress.. i'm basically working 5 person's job..
my own job + my snr's work + being my boss PA + supervisor for my girls + adminstrator
i've got new manager coming in n another shocker was my irritating snr got promoted to assistant manager *shit!*
i so regret not jumping on the promotion chance to her post as proj coordinator *shit!*
But then again, i've only been in this co. for 8 mths.. i do c more opportunities.. my apprasial is coming so i'm really working hard for that pay raise and promotion.. Jus pray that b***h will not b doing my appraisal *pray*
Anyway, everyones knows wat kind of person i am and wat kind of a b***h "she" was so i hope i don get sabo but her.. hope my boss can c that.. anyway, everyday is bz getting ready for my sis's big day.. On top of it my own stuff and the work jus keeps piling up...
So looking to go for holiday.. but plans will have to go back to mar or maybe jun/ jul.. thinking of going to thailand.. bkk.. starting to plan..
Anyone out there interested to join? can drop me a note then can also start saving *wink*
ok.. its late n tml got meeting.. yes meeting on Fri..
Damm i can't really dress down gotta wear shirt *urgh!*

~ Looking Ahead ~

Looking back in 2005..

Some major things in my life >>
New job/ eye consultation/ see the true colours of some so call friends/ knowing new frens etc ..

Some major things in my r/s >>
Dear's leg injury/ our hse/ getting married etc ..

Some major issues at hm >>
Da jie's hospitalisation/ issues back at hm etc ..

Its been a long year.. it didn't start well but it ended well.. but all is past.. its a new yr.. n with a new year resolution for 2006..
Hope that 2006 will be a smooth sailing n peaceful year for me *pray*

Its 2 days into 2006 and i oredi have alot planned out..
have been staying in for yst n today.. doing some soul searching n mind sorting..
defining my 2006 resolution n deciding wat i want in life...

Jan 2006 >>

7th - back hm to prepare for da jie's wedding
8th - Da jie's wedding
9th - Take my hse keys
10th - dinner w my family
26th - jeanie's bday
27th - anniversary
28th - da jie bday
29th - CNY eve

then its Happy Chinese new year!!

Now for my 2006 resolution -

1) Lose weight
2) Earn more $$
3) Learn to be more optimistic
4) stay away from "unrealistic" ppl
5) don get cheated or back stabbed
6) manage my $$ well
7) save more $$ (ok think is a bit like the above)
8) manage my diet
9) more shopping
10) less day dreaming
11) get into some studying thingy (course or further studies)
12) try to go get my basic theory (deardear keep nagging me)
13) read more books (god i need more time)
14) try to exercise (i'm thinking of walking n stairs climbing)
15) Spend more time with my family
16) cook more often (yes, i can cook n its edible!!)
17) bake more cakes n cookies for my loved ones (yes i bake too!!)
18) work hard @ work
19) do more kind deeds to be a better person (i was thinking donating old clothes n toys)
20) Last but not least to cherish n treasure all my frens n loved ones beside me n to stay healthy

Thats a long list but its better then starting with nothing..
i have to start somewhere n a quarter of a century is a good time to start...

" To everyone,
Wishing peace n health
Smiles n a smooth sailing 2006 "

HaPPy 2006

Its a new yr and wat best way then sharing the joy with ur friends and ur loved ones..
Had lunch with deardear @ Sizzler...



*me n deardear @ Sizzler*

before meeting Jeanie n Kit for KTV @ Marina Sq.. its been a long while since i've last went.. Didn't had time for dinner so sneak in some juicy and delicious Carl Jr's burgers in *yum yum*



* us @ KTV + Carl Jr's burgers *

After KTV we decided to join in the countdown and catch the fireworks @ Esplanade..
Kit's fren joined us too.. It was too crowded down at the place n the crowd went way back into the building so we few "smart alec" decided to go to second storey.. enjoy the aircon n view the fireworks from there.. too bad we were a bit block but we still saw most of the beautiful fireworks display..



* us all waiting for the countdown *





More pictures >> http://jengcc.multiply.com/photos/album/12

Happy New Year Everyone!!!
Stay Happy and healthy!!!
Cheers!!!